July 31st, 2006

mountain ascent (Pete in this photo)

ideas.. the day toils...

It's too hot. I'm actually having cravings for snow.

I miss my little brother Pete lots & lots - tomorrow is August, we often got to hang out together in August, our last visit together was August - I found the last birthday card he made me while cleaning my papers yesterday : it was a beautiful handmade collage with purple mountain flowers layered on undersea coral reefs and with a field and fence & stars on the other side layered with a green macro-photo of something textured .. it's really beautiful. I miss talking w/ya Pete.

Man, this heat is making my allergies go through the roof - but that's okay 'cause I have something to blame my red eyes on - I'm trying to drown my allergies in curry -so far it seems to be working, think I'll go make another cup of yummy 'thai' brand curry ramen, and get more water.

Drink lots of water everybody.

So the news: It is soooo sad. I get sad just thinking about it. Between the wars and the heat, I want to move underground where I can hide from the world whenever I want to, like a rabbit or a groundhog or something to that effect.. just come out when it's calmer, you know? It's just .. so much. The wars, the natural disasters, the sadness is so much.

Good thing my work is pretty low key today, by that I mean, lots of automated processes to do : I'm uploading a ton of content right now, and sending out an August newsletter to 15,000 + subscribers. I wonder what they are all doing to stay cool in this heat, I wonder what they think of these wars, and deaths, and sadness.

On a more positive note, I really enjoyed visiting with everyone who came over last night to hang out & play nickle. I prob. should not have stayed up until 4am+ but I was really having a lot of fun. I guess that's probably another reason I'm so emotional & feeling vulnerable today - this lack of sleep. The kids got up bright-eyed and full of glorious wonderful energy this morning at 7am - I think that's cool. I'm glad I'm able to get up so early and be there for them. I should remember to go to sleep earlier though: heh. I think I'll try to go to sleep with them at 7:30pm tonight, any bets on if I can do this? heh.

Well, I'm off to drown my sorrows and allergies in more curry, and then hopefully some exercise in an hour or two. With that, here's a glorious poem I crossed paths with on the internet today, and it reminds me of the timelessness of our issues, and the existence we tread through, we tread through together.

"The Second Coming"

Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: somewhere in the sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again; but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

William Butler Yeats

I also looked up the meaning behind the song "Love Spreads" by The Stone Roses, it seems to be one of many songs that make me think of my bro ; both my bro's really... and it is apparently a song about the imagery of Jesus, and the idea of that perhaps a black woman being on the crucifix... and I didn't have much time to look into it, but it's an interesting song.

This photo is from a neat green-building / futuristic architecture web site, which I've hot-linked the photo to...
drawing of me

ooh ooh ooh, I want these right NOW!

2006 IDEA Awards
“One of the most creative solutions to an everyday problem I've seen in years.”Bronze Student Designs E - rope
CREDIT: Chul Min Kang, Miju Kim and Sung Hun Lim
CLIENT: Pratt Institute

E- rope is a modular power strip that enables users to add or subtract sockets as needed. In addition, to better accommodate large, bulky cords each socket can also be rotated 180 degrees, so adjacent sockets are not blocked. When electrical devices are not in use, simply twist the socket section 90 degrees to disconnect the flow of electricity. (Often referred to as vampire power, approximately 10 percent of a home's electricity is used by appliances in standby mode.)
Data provided by IDSA

I also found this sweet idea on that green architecture site, nice. I hope they get to market, I totally want to eliminate all that vampire power-wasting in my house *(and off my bill, too, thanks!) _ I like it.
True Life (Pete's bumper sticker)

Well - it's only 9:22pm

ok, I finally got the kids to bed, picked up the misc. toys all over the living room & dining room & kitchen & hallway (don't want anyone to trip or fall!) and those left in the driveway (don't want them run over; that would be terrible & it's hard to see toys at night) - sooo : I get to go to bed now, yay~

It's 2 hours later then usual, but it's cool 'cause the kids got an unplanned playdate with novamx3's kids, which rocks - they always have a great time. His kids wanted to use "feamo" you know "feeaeamo" - I finally figured out it was "Fimo" - so we spent the first hour playing outside (bikes, scooters, gatorade, then water, then juice (hot!) then dinner outside picnic style on the kids table (mac & cheese, blue corn chips, more liquids, & dry cereals for dessert) _ that was fun & easy to clean up! Yay. Then we came in & did Fimo, after a game Of "guess what we're talking about" heh heh.. no, jk.. kinda. So I got the Fimo out & they did sculptures & I baked them in this little toaster I got as a bday gift years ago & I just love that I have it so I can do fimo/polymer clay sculptures & beads : sooo fun. Someday I'll get a cheap pasta maker so I can do even more cool stuff w/this clay).

I got in 2 workouts today - elliptical & abs work/stretching.. and I'm going to do leg work/resistance before bed; it's easy w/these little Walgreens workout stuff I got that is made by Bally Fitness: it rocks.

Anyhow - I have sooooo very far to go before I feel I will be in shape, but I have to keep working at it! I keep telling myself, I've been fit _most_ of my life, really - just fell out of it after having a baby, then getting in that big car wreck (SUV ran a red light; luckily I was the only one in our car/whew) - and then another kiddo - so now it's time to get serious about fitness & stay serious: it's worth it. I feel Soooo much better when I'm a better weight, & muscular - For example! I have not had to use my asthma inhaler in a long time: Even with all this heat!! I haven't even been remembering to carry it anymore -I took it to the concert because I knew I would be dancing for all 3 hours or so ; but otherwise, I try to keep it in my purse, but realized today I haven't had it in there for at least 2 weeks! Wow, good think I did not need it! Heh. But, it's because I've been exercising: I'm certain of it! I don't get winded as much, I breathe better, I have more energy, I just feel better and can do more, and don't get as tired: it's great.

But, I still have a long way to go! But, I'll get there.

Not much else to say, so I'm going to bed, but before that, this was a fun & thought-provoking meme: It's one of my favorites in a long time. =)

You scored as Utilitarianism. Your life is guided by the principles of Utilitarianism: You seek the greatest good for the greatest number.

"The said truth is that it is the greatest happiness of the greatest number that is the measure of right and wrong."

--Jeremy Bentham

"Whenever the general disposition of the people is such, that each individual regards those only of his interests which are selfish, and does not dwell on, or concern himself for, his share of the general interest, in such a state of things, good government is impossible."

--John Stuart Mill

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